tis the season to be jolly!

I went back to my family home for christmas. It was as nostalgic and memorable as always. all of my siblings are grown ups and mostly with own family and children now. For me, this time the situation is definitely different from what it was before.
Back then, when i was a little bit younger, i use to complaint on how i had to do everything when i went back for holiday. But this time, my sisters and sis in law seems to be a bit alert and quite good at lending hand to share the chores. I'm so glad this happen. Maybe that i'm wit a baby, so they kinda realize that i can't do all by myself already, plus my baby is a lil bit scared of them (he didnt use to be around them, so he consider them as stranger huhu)
Good thing to see improvement in my sisters and sis in law. I'm a bit restrained to do things this time as my bby seeking for my attention most of the time. but still i enjoy the holiday just chit chating with my bro and sis. we having a gud laugh and share some new jokes haha! and the moment that i cherish the most is bringing my baby to meet my grandparents for the 1st time. my grandfather was so excited to see his great grandchildren.
It worth all just for the sake of the memories we have and beautiful time i spent with my big family.
Happy new year everyone!

holiday

Holiday season is here. will be goin back to hometown tomoro. I'm a bit nervous travelling with my 6 month old for the 1st time without his dad. we'll get on the 1st flight out. Preparing things for my lil one for this trip is trying me..well first time mom hv it all i guess..haha..i just carefully decide what to bring, how many, & how to get this journey an enjoyable one for my active son. my husband remind me (before he went travelling this morning) to make sure we travel as light as we can, coz i need to handle my boy. The baby carrier will do well i hope..and i will go only in one back pack.
i'm so excited already..and so as my son. i keep on telling him about the trip tht we gonna take (a relative advise me to do so, so tht baby can settle easily into the trip) and most important thing, this is the first time i bring my baby "balik kampung" to my hometown.

hurt me most..

Most of the time i'm honest, but somehow people take my honesty for granted. I hate that. This is one thing that i can't accept in my life. Once i'm telling the truth, i can't accept people taking it as a lie or half believe it. as i remember, i grow up like that. i will stand up for the truth, no matter who the person i deal with. It doesnt matter how i gonna prove it, as long as i stand up for the truth.

But recently, my determination to stand up for the truth pays me back. i got a new deep scar in my heart because of it. i know i did not deserve that scar. For the person that stab me, i'm sorry that it change how i feel about you now. not to say i entirely detached you but there is fraction now. There is no point to make amend for this incident. what's done is done. Part of me just gone with it.

how can i explain

i'm havin dillema rite now. my other half just hate my job, well me too but i'm kinda hangin around, for a gud reason. until i can move on to other job, i guess i have to face this situation.
I need to deal with his hate and my boss takin advantage over me

can't quite clear my head

i just cant understand why people like to make a mountain out of a molehill..
if you are just and done nothing wrong, why would you hide??
why complicate a simple thing?
why can't think of a simple way?
why can't live on the way things are?
why can't accept the truth and reality?

Actually, i am so tired of living with the above question that bothers me everyday. i know everything is complicated in this life, but get out of the box! look at the problem from outside, u will see better solution, rather than stuck in it. I just can't stand this, or maybe some people in some community are just soooo fragile that they find life problem is like having terminal disease.