making any sense???

my life is pretty low lately..i could tell that i feel stuck. I'm out of idea what to do..actually i dont have time to do anything for myself at this moment. my mind always went blank. I start to accept this situation, and losing me again..i need to hold on to something before i really losing myself again this time. I must fight for my life and my brain. i can feel my brain is decaying..
each time i log on to fb, when i wanted to post something on my status..i'm lost, don't really know what to type there. you can tell that my life is really low..how do i get here?? i really need to get back on track, but my husband always become a big boulder in front of me, making me stuck and can't move forward. i hate this. i constantly seeking and getting ideas to get out of my stagnant situation now, but he turn off all the posibilities of making it happen. I want to be free! not free from my husband, don't get me wrong, i love that guy to death..i mean, i want to be free in taking chances, risks, and changes. the sadis part is, my husband can't play the card along with me. He's a 'safe' type, the opposite of me (that y we got married, we complete each other ;))
now, how and what should i do about this? should i just sit here waiting for an answer from God, or i should work harder on it..well, the bible said "faith without action is dead" i guess i do both then..I pray that my husband will at least support me a bit in my effort this time. coz he's all talk all this while, but when it come to real thing, he's all againts it. i guess that's why, my Hope is in God alone, and totally can't count on my husband's support.
urrhhhh..clearmyhead!

Canon Flamenco - Pachelbel's Canon (Alkhayyaal)

love this version so much..inspire me!

the three of us

for the 1st time, my husband and i brought our little boy on a trip for the weekend. It is really fun, i love being away and having quality time with my son. of course now he is 8 months old, i need to pack differently from before. the whole experience was refreshing.

we went to the beach, and let him explore the sand..he enjoyed it so much and so as the sea breeze. we went to a seafood restaurant, he make friend with a cute cat there. And, instead of missing his bath in his own tub at home, he squeaks happily having shower together with me. He easily adapt to new environment.

we took photos for the memory, he's pretty excited to posed in every snap. all i have to say, he is so much like his mom and dad..hihihihi..

looking forward another trip ;)

Turning point

For nearly 6 months, i have taking my body for granted..i dont really care about it. I totally ignore my look, figure and my health. i always use the reason just gave birth as an excuse. lately, i realize how unhealthy i was, i have been coughing for 2 weeks, my sore throat is still there til today and wjole lot more sickness which i always ignore. i realize my immune system wasnt like it used to be. not to mention that now i put on weight like i never did before.
I straight away know that i need to control over my body again. So i start to find remedies, work out plan, bought myself real bras than those maternity bras i wore all this while for comfy, start eating healthy, reduce my portion, redo my wardrobe, study my skin n face and lots more to get my body back to what it was before. I should've done this months ago. well i know it's not too late now.
This chinese new year somehow bring a new vibe to me..well i know blessing comes in so many type ^_^